Motherhood

I've been thinking about motherhood and my role as a mother A LOT lately. I know a majority of these thoughts are being brought on by Satan because most of them have been about all the things I am doing wrong but I am choosing to defy him and turn these thoughts into ways I can be a better mom. Yes, I still yell too much and yes, I spend too much time on my phone or on the iPad but those are daily, continual battles. I am spending a lot more time on my knees, working with my Father to become the mother my children deserve. Today I was reading a blog and the author was talking about her son on his mission in Croatia. He's been there 24 months and sent his mom a picture of his shoes, looking so ragged and worn. His mom talks about how seeing these brought tears to her eyes not because of how they looked but because of the many miles her son has walked in these shoes, the numerous doors he's knocked and the many, many people he has met in these shoes. She talked of how these shoes have been 'worn through, used up, and worn out.' While I was reading these words of love from a mother about her son so many miles away, the thought came to me that the theory of the shoes applies to me as a mother. If I'm not 'worn through, used up, and worn out' by the end of the day I have not been a good mom (and wife) that day. I have chosen the be a wife and mother to these three beautiful spirits my loving Father in Heaven sent to me so all my energies and being are to be spent loving and caring for them. They are to come first and foremost in my life! They are the most important things in my life right now. Much more important than clothes, tv shows, Facebook and blogs (even the good, spiritual ones) and I want to spend each and every minute of every day making them feel that way. I never want them to question their value in my life. My actions need to, and will show them that they are what I live for, what I love, and what I am.